The Cocky shark 2

     It's finally morning. I couldn't sleep well all night, lots of calculations in my mind lost of thinking about the competition and how well it's going to be, because from the day that I've met Maggy till today I'm putting down all my coaching experience to help her swim better, since I believe in her abilities. I had my coffee, watched some sport news till it's time to wake Maggy up so she gets ready for the final championship, 1oom freestyle.

     I went to her room and knocked on her door softly couple times but there is no answer. KNOCK-KNOCK! I wait impatiently, putting my hands in my pocket, staring at the door and saying “She'll get it now.” Still no answer, I panicked. The moment that you think of fifty possible things at the same time, you know; she's not hearing it, she ran away, still sleeping, didn't sleep in her room, etc...“Oh this girl” I said, and ran to the cafeteria to check her there.

     Luckily I see her sitting in the corner beside the window having her cup in both hands and staring out. I threw my self on the chair next to her and smack-dab I said “Big day today huh?” I scared the hell of her. She freaks out; almost spill her drink over, then gives me a faint look and says “Yeah”.
     I thought she will be all excited about today but she didn't say much. I could tell from her eyes that she didn't get enough sleep, I knew that she hung out with the other swimmers without even asking one question. I 'm so pissed off, I couldn't calm my self down. I told her with kind of aggressive voice that what she's doing is wrong, and she should be more responsible of her acts. I mean who does that before an important day like this! This girl is going to put my effort in trash, she never listens. I left her alone because I could yell at her face all day. I told her that warming up starts in one hour, I'll meet her there, and she better be ready for that.

     I took off to the pool right away so I can see the schedule and double check everything. I met with the lady responsible of the program, we had a small talk ;she is damn hot and smart too. I wish I got her number. Well, I somehow tried to “Nice talking to you hope to see you next year.”she answered with her soft calm sound. Anyways, everything is right and ready for Maggy.

I still have couple minutes before the event starts, so I compared the numbers again with the other competitors scores. My expectation is that she has a chance to be in first place, because she has a better time in trainings than the one she got in trails. All she has to do, is to put all what she got in this one.

I want to talk to Maggy again before the race, since I said many things that she gets bother off at breakfast. I'm sure she's annoyed and stressed about it. I understand that those competitions are great opportunity to meet with the other swimmers, I've been there too. Yet I couldn't stay silence, since I know exactly how it feels in the water when you don't get enough sleep, it's like you have an extra five pounds on each leg and arm.

     I see that she's ready now, she's all wormed up and doing stretches. I rush to her, start helping with some stretch moves and encouraging her. I know her ego wont let her to come and apologize from me for such an irresponsible behavior, so I act like everything is cool and all it matters now is to do the best of her best. They called her event, I said good luck to her tapping on her shoulder. Well, I did my job to get her here. Now it's her part to finish this show.

     I stand up idly by the crowd holding my papers with one hand, excited for the results and nervous, it's like I'm the one who's going to race. She stands up on the block, I shouted my last cheering words putting my hands on my mouth-to make it louder- “lets go girl” I'm sure she will recognize my voice. She starts first 25 m behind, there was four swimmers before her but she turns the second 50m with the first swimmer. “She's the first” I yelled and started jumping around, then they touch the finish wall. “Damn, third”and I threw my papers on the ground.

     This race should have been hers. She had better number in training for god sake! First place was going to open lots of opportunities to a higher swimming competitions. She lost It all as a result of her irresponsibility, irregular exercises, and pointless absence. She has the passion to swim but she needs extra concern for her goals, so she can get to better opportunities. I think now, after this disappointment she understands to be more thoughtful and responsible, however she's paying it off her success. Maybe next year she will be more prepared and yeah maybe I'll get that lady’s number too, who knows.

Final Wish

Couple weeks ago we were doing English exercise in classroom, and the professor asked us a question inspired from “Fight Club” movie “what do you want to do before you die?”. I felt like that’s the hardest question that I got in my life. The reason why it's seemed hard is because I’ve never thought about it, in fact that means I still don't know myself that well. I was surprised and I said to my self “ Wow this is the stupidest question, the least thing that I should know about me. How come I've never thought about it ”

I tried to come up with an answer, but nothing seemed perfect. Then I thought that I always wanted to become a physical therapist, it must be the answer. Biasing on that I said “I want to become the person that I want to be.” Then I realized that is not the only thing, “the person that I want to be” has a long list that I don't even want to go over it. But all I know that I don't want to die after I reach my goal, I want to live it! this is my goal, that's why I'm in QCC right now, that’s why I'm working and saving money for, after I get there I don't want to leave.

But then I stopped for second and re-asked the question to myself “what is the thing that if I do it I die happy, or I can say yeah! I don't mind to die now”. I took my time to think about it again because this question turned out that it's an important one, It shows part of your personality. I thought about what I like to do, or have never done, like traveling around the world. Do crazy things that I want to experience like sky diving, be reach and powerful, I want to all of those. But the final answer that I came up with was the simplest thing that human can ask, to fall in love.

This final wish for me probably seems so pointless, or maybe it reflexes that I have no goal in my life. But after I got this answer I stopped thinking further, that was the perfect answer for me. I think a chose this because these days it's hard to find a true love, and relationships are so complicated. I've been in relationships but I believe non of those where love. Because in my opinion who find love can't give up on it; and if he/she does, that means it wasn't love.

Before I die I want to spend a great time with my loved one, enjoy each others company and have fun. I've chose this as a last moment of my life, because what makes me happy is not material. A sweet compliment, a hug, a spontaneous moment, a kiss etc.. incorporeal things are preferred. Everybody has dreams and goals in their life trying to reach, some of them big and some others are so simple. Eventually that’s a goal for that fellow, who is living to achieve that.

Why Reading?

Reading is a skill not everybody has it, it's not an unreachable skill though. I would finish one page of reading in fifteen minutes, as others can do ten pages or even more in the same duration. I always have been a slow reader, that was one of the reasons that I couldn’t finish reading a novel or a long story. I tried couple times; I did finish recently a book called “The Secrete” which wasn't that bad. It made me look at the world in another angle; which is the main reason why people read, so they can exchange point of views and have several ideas about one subject or even a problem.

An other reason that always hold me off reading, was the stupid idea that I used to tell to myself each time I think about reading a story “Its better to read my text book instead of reading this love story, and try to get higher score at school. After I finish school I'll have a plenty of time to read stories.” But the problem is that my school seems like it's endless!

Although of my tiny book reading, I do lots of mail reading. I don't just read my mails and emails I do my parent’s as well. I have to read them all so I can be able to understand the requirements and explain it to them. As well as reading documents so I can realize the given information, and act on its basis. However, I don't like the fact that I read because I have to. I want to read so I can experience the world in its different aspects.

I really admire with dose who read, because they defiantly know something more than I do. It's a mind expanding device, along with the benefit of entertainment and mind relief. And a strange fact that is , readers are increasing this days. Some of us think that in past people were more interested in reading, but that is fortunately wrong. Because now there is audio books and ebooks which are providing us an easy access for reading books.

I will take advantage of those tools, and I will practice to be a good reader. I will learn how to read fast with understanding the content of cores! I want to know the stories of those writers, who are passionately sharing there tales with the world; just so I get the reading benefits which is having general knowledge and experience through others experiments.

Why Writing?

  Outside school writing is as beneficial as writing for assignment, and probably more because we don’t write only seeking for high scores. We write to express ourselves to others, make a point of our ideas, and built a communication with them. Also practicing writing allows us to become a good lecturer or presenter not for school finals, but in work and relations.

  People express their feelings in different ways dancing, acting, singing etc… Writing is a way to express your feelings too. This amazing tool helps you to choose your words. You take your time to find the best word that describes your idea, and put it down on the paper. And finally you will be viewing a craft made of your own, and in the meanwhile you would be defined all the suppressed emotions in you.

  Writing is a translation; it converts the scattered thoughts to a gathered material, so it can be tangible for the others. It’s hard to catch every thought in your mind, and it’s even harder remembering them. Therefore we should resort to writing, so we can put down every single idea in our minds. Eventually we will emphasize our ideas, and make it understandable and clear to others.

  Putting pen to paper had never been appalling. Because you will be educating yourself and practicing your writing skills each time you do so. Write anything you like bad or good, share your life story! That will be a memorable diary and piece of work that will live for a long time, and when people read that will create a communication between you somehow.

  We do connect with others writing, specially this days. We communicate texting and E-mailing more than phone calls, to solve a problem or even if we’re just talking to a friend. So why don’t we write it in a better structure and a brilliant ideas. Let’s be a great writers!