Final Wish

Couple weeks ago we were doing English exercise in classroom, and the professor asked us a question inspired from “Fight Club” movie “what do you want to do before you die?”. I felt like that’s the hardest question that I got in my life. The reason why it's seemed hard is because I’ve never thought about it, in fact that means I still don't know myself that well. I was surprised and I said to my self “ Wow this is the stupidest question, the least thing that I should know about me. How come I've never thought about it ”

I tried to come up with an answer, but nothing seemed perfect. Then I thought that I always wanted to become a physical therapist, it must be the answer. Biasing on that I said “I want to become the person that I want to be.” Then I realized that is not the only thing, “the person that I want to be” has a long list that I don't even want to go over it. But all I know that I don't want to die after I reach my goal, I want to live it! this is my goal, that's why I'm in QCC right now, that’s why I'm working and saving money for, after I get there I don't want to leave.

But then I stopped for second and re-asked the question to myself “what is the thing that if I do it I die happy, or I can say yeah! I don't mind to die now”. I took my time to think about it again because this question turned out that it's an important one, It shows part of your personality. I thought about what I like to do, or have never done, like traveling around the world. Do crazy things that I want to experience like sky diving, be reach and powerful, I want to all of those. But the final answer that I came up with was the simplest thing that human can ask, to fall in love.

This final wish for me probably seems so pointless, or maybe it reflexes that I have no goal in my life. But after I got this answer I stopped thinking further, that was the perfect answer for me. I think a chose this because these days it's hard to find a true love, and relationships are so complicated. I've been in relationships but I believe non of those where love. Because in my opinion who find love can't give up on it; and if he/she does, that means it wasn't love.

Before I die I want to spend a great time with my loved one, enjoy each others company and have fun. I've chose this as a last moment of my life, because what makes me happy is not material. A sweet compliment, a hug, a spontaneous moment, a kiss etc.. incorporeal things are preferred. Everybody has dreams and goals in their life trying to reach, some of them big and some others are so simple. Eventually that’s a goal for that fellow, who is living to achieve that.